In today's age and culture, almost anything goes. This book exists to detail a true, graphic, and honest perspective of my life and to show where to obtain the truth for our lives. In my past, I was hurting and I was allowing this world to consume me. I was going in the right direction in a wrong world. I wanted change, but I didn't want to change. We have reached a critical and saturated level of desensitization. The world is in a current state of spiritual depression. A true connection is being lost with today's generation. I had to stand up and shine light into a dark world to which I was once a part of. There millions of adults and young adults who are looking for truthful answers in their current situations. This book describes, in detail, aspects of my past, negative mindset and the subtle destruction that was occurring. I have been saved by grace I have been fortunate to live in many U.S. cities and also overseas. I have traveled to many foreign countries. I have also experienced many aspects in my young life. This sinful world will not last. My life has been sustained to show the present light of my life, through glimpses, of my past darkness. My life has been completely changed. I was lost just like millions of souls are right now. But I knew that there had to be more to life than what I was going through. I am so grateful and thankful I have accepted my free gift.