In the words of Hans Urs von Balthasar, this memoir ''explains the genesis, meaning and fate of the books of Father de Lubac, and situates them within the course of the various stages of his life, his studies, his meetings, his friendships as well as his legendary exiles and banishment.'' Written by one whose life intertwined deeply with the great personalities and events of the pre- and post-Vatican II periods, the book provides a unique perspective on the intellectual and religious life of the Church and indeed European culture during these exciting times. De Lubac says that ''it is not without embarrassment, or even more than that, that I transcribe some of the texts in which I am too central a figure. But I have not wanted, through some subjective consideration, to omit anything that might help to shed some light on the matters concerned. Because of the circumstances, from beginning to end, the point of view is strictly personal.'' In this book one finds an honest spirit that is without bitterness and self-pity, that on the contrary witnesses to a profound love of God and the Church. This book provides a perspective that simply cannot be found elsewhere. Co-published with Communio Books.