Written from the perspective of Nathaniel, an imaginary disciple of Jesus, Williams wanders through the Gospel narratives, constructing a theology of suffering from his own unique perspective. Arguing with Jesus and the other disciples, Nathaniel seeks healing for his soul even as his body falls apart. In painfully honest and often humorous language, he demands to understand grace, suffering, and forgiveness while seeking to know the reality of God's love for him. This is a new theology that comes from experience and striving, rather than from a textbook. Fearless in his search for answers and clarity, Williams never backs down, all the while maintaining an extraordinary sense of humor.