Looking back on my journey since my Heavenly Father said to me wake up and pay attention, to what I have read in the word of God and to remember what He has done for me and in my family. I need to look back on yesterday only to make notes for today to take forward on tomorrow. I should stay focused and learn on the things around me for they are on purpose. Life should be treated like a classroom, the more focus I become, the more knowledge is absorbed. But if I do not focus and apply myself I can get stuck on things as simple as adding and subtraction. We all know that the more of God's wisdom that we have the greater the possibilities. For me, it wasn't the matter of not wanting to be taught. I had forgotten how to listen; I had taught myself how to be distracted from heart ship, from pain and from disappointment. The Lord has shown me that, there can be growth from those things, along with, the sense of loss, hurt and betrayal, and more, if I do not dismiss it, but press through it instead.