This book is for the 3 a.m. woman... You know who you are. You wake up at 3 a.m., mind racing, unable to go back to sleep. You're desperately seeking that one thing that will bring order to your chaotic world. You struggle to fill that gaping hole in your soul and you wonder if this is all life has to offer. And if it is, where can you get off the hamster wheel? You jump frantically from one relationship to another, from one job to another, and still you can barely do more than survive, each waking moment a struggle to put one foot in front of the other. But what if life is about joy, and not survival? For more than forty years, Tina Joy Cochran lived a life of survival. Her journey led her through brokenness, divorce, job loss, obesity, and unrelenting depression. The birth of her son opened up the doorway to the world of autism, and it was in that world where she found not only alpacas, but the challenge to lose weight. And yet, her heart still cried out daily, "God, please take me home. I don't want to live like this anymore." A five-year journey of darkness and seeking uncovered a secret love and faith that had existed all along, and a life of joy she had never imagined could be hers. Her story is one of inspiration and hope. It's a love story between the Creator and His daughter, and how you can never run so far that you can't come home again.